Restless Thoughts

This mind so unsettled,where will I rest my head. The pillow is soft, yet it never holds my thoughts. I lay awake and dream of a day when my head will lay empty and peaceful,where no thought will enter in or out, just plain empty. The sunset shapes my thoughts, as I fly up into the sun and I explode and disperse into a million tiny pieces and then maybe I'll be whole again. My heart lay desolate, stolen and stepped on, I will not trust again. Tried and true I've failed and so will you. The One inside always hides, to you it'll not be shown. Behind the mask hides the hideous face of the One you called your own. How could it be that we are so left out, that we didn't see the signs. That we couldn't unmask the One we loved and that then we were left behind.